Day Two:
I truly hope to use this blog as an outlet to discuss topics relating to being a single mother, usually in a positive tone. But, today may not adhere to that intention, so I will go ahead and apologize now. As some of you know, I am a breast cancer survivor. Next month will be five years since my initial diagnosis, so I have been anxiously awaiting that milestone to finally be considered "cancer-free" when it comes to insurance, etc. So, today I went to have some scans done to verify that status. I don't have any results yet, but that is not really the point of this entry. The point of this entry is that I am stubborn and independent; these things typically serve me well in my daily life, but not today.
I was supposed to have two different scans done today, but they would take a total of four hours to complete. Typically, my daddy goes with me to these appointments, but today he had a ballgame and my mother had my little girl, so I did not want to bother anyone with having to take me. Even though I had three or four friends offer to accompany me today, I turned them all down. I do not like to bother people and make them waste their time because of me, so I decided to go it alone. Be mistake!
Long story short, I had a ton of issues with getting my injections, so I was only able to get one of the scans done. My arm is all bruised up and swollen, and I am absolutely exhausted. I should not have gone alone, I should not have driven home as tired as I was, and I should not have been that upset without someone there with me. But, it is no one's fault but my own. I should have asked for help.
You would think I would have learned my lesson about this by now, but obviously not. So, if you are reading this, please take my advice and ask for help. No matter how great you are at juggling a million tasks, at managing stress, or at being successful in every aspect of your life, there are times when you simply need other people to help you make your life the best it can be. I know as a single mother, I like to do everything myself at my own pace (which is usually 100 mph). But, there are times when I simply cannot do it all. I get exhausted, overwhelmed, or even sick. I am lucky enough to have parents who will help me in any way possible, and friends who are always there for me when I need them. The problem is that no one knows you need help unless you ask for it. Essentially, what I am saying it, don't be stubborn like me! Ask for help before it becomes more than you can handle. As a mother, you need to take care of yourself first. If you are not happy, healthy, and able to deal with stress in your every day life you will not be the best mother or the best person you are capable of being. So, on that note, I will take my own advice and relax in my recliner until my baby girl gets home. Tata for now!
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